The last few days I’ve been in a funk. It all started Wednesday night when my sister and I went to see the movie Dear John. If you don’t know what that movie is here’s a little about it:

Special Forces Army Sergeant – John Tyree (Channing Tatum…OMG can you say HOT? He’s GORGEOUS!) – who is home on a two-week leave from Germany and he meets a college student – Savannaah Curtis (Amanda Seyfried) – after he dives into the ocean to retrieve Savannah’s purse that had fallen off the pier. A budding romance occurs, and Savannah falls deeply in love with John. As she is about to go back to college, she promises to write John overseas during the next 12-months until he returns to her after completing his enlistment. Their love is put to the test when John reenlists after the 9/11 attack.

So what does this movie have to do with my ‘funk’ I’ve been in the last few days? Some of you remember Seth I dated awhile ago, some of you probably have no clue what I’m talking about (it’s a long story). He is in the Army, in the special forces even! While our story is nothing like the movie it’s everything like the movie – if that makes any sense.

I’ve been doing a really good job of ‘hiding’ how I feel lately. In fact I was pretty sure it wasn’t the least bit apparent to anyone that I still had feelings for him (boy was I wrong). I mean after all this time there’s no reason I should still have feelings for him.

I had a minor (ok major) meltdown at the movies. My poor sister didn’t know what to do other than hug me and let me cry. I seriously cried through the ENTIRE movie! The tears started within the first 10-15 minutes of the movie and didn’t end until well into the next morning! I cried a lot (it’s been awhile since I’ve had a cry like this lol).

There’s a part of my heart that still belongs to him and it frustrates me. I know you can’t help who you fall in love with and I truly didn’t expect to fall in love with Seth – it just happened. It took me by surprise but when I fall…I fall really hard and I fell harder than I’ve fallen before.

Soon he’ll be redeploying and just like times in the past my heart falls to my toes thinking about him being in danger again. I get sick to my stomach thinking about him leaving without me getting to say goodbye. I get sick to my stomach thinking about how I still feel and the fact he doesn’t know it…even though it wouldn’t matter even if he did.

So I wonder – how long is long enough before you’re ready to move on? Why does it take longer to move on from some relationships than it does other ones?

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Hey everyone! Happy TMT – Tell Me Thursday! It’s been awhile since I’ve done one and I figured this week was the perfect time to hop back on board seems how I just got back from a totally rocking internet marketing/affiliate marketing conference – NAMS – in Atlanta, Georgia.

The funny thing to yesterday’s WW post – He’s a Hottie is the fact that the picture I posted had nothing to do with NAMS but yet it had everything to do with NAMS.

Here’s the pic again:

This is “T”. He’s an Army man (awwwwh Army men! I just dig them! Not only because they are such hotties but because they serve our country in a way that takes a very special individual!). Let me just say that I was literally in 7th heaven seeing all the Army men around the hotel (is it bad that I’m already wondering if there will be a bunch of them there in August when I go back for NAMS 4???)!

Anyways – I kind of had my eye on “T” from the first night at the hotel when I spotted him. There were a couple of times we smiled and said hi but nothing to brag about. Finally the last night we were there and I was up at the bar getting a drink (sitting and chatting to some other dude – yes I was a total flirt that night! But hey I was having fun!) “T” finally started talking to me.

At first I didn’t really talk back – I was a little tongue tied. But thanks to the help of some peeps – Angie Newton and Tammy Munson – the conversation started flowing. He was intriguing, fascinating, HOT, nice, HOT, a gentleman and super sweet. A man that kisses on the cheek? Impressive!

I’m hoping to stay in contact (I actually emailed him on my own without the help of the above ladies (LOL) so now I’m just waiting to hear back from him!) with him even though I know nothing will ever come of our little ‘hotel flirting session’. Let’s just say that it’s nice to know that a man still wants to flirt with me! It’s been a loooooong time!

Once again it’s been awhile since I’ve posted over here. Things have been insanely crazy lately because I was so busy getting a bunch of work done and other odds and ends before heading out of town this past Tuesday. As you see from the title I’m in Atlanta, Georgia right now. Got here Thursday.

Some of you may have ‘heard’ a bunch of NAMS talk on Twitter lately. Well that’s where I’m at. NAMS stands for Niche Affiliate Market Systems. It’s all about affiliate marketing and it’s a big conference with three different levels – beginner, intermediate and advanced. Anyways that’s why I’m here. I’m having a blast! Learning lots and meeting so many awesome people! And enjoying a week away and no ‘responsibilities’.

The road trip down was a lot of fun. Kind of. Well for the most part it was but driving through the mountains was really rough. I had a major meltdown Thursday during the drive through the mountains. Not just a little nervous feeling but as in a major meltdown. I had to pull my sweatshirt over my head so I couldn’t see. I was shaking and crying! (No I wasn’t driving! lol).

I survived it but I’m a little freaked already thinking about having to drive back through them on our way home. So for the next NAMS workshop which is coming up in August that we are coming back for I’m going to be checking out the price of a plane ticket!

Tishia