You know me I’m an open book.

When it comes to my weight I’ve been a pretty open book. But it’s so easy to ‘hide’ behind the computer screen only sharing pictures that I crop and don’t show my whole body. Or when I’m losing weight only share the number lost not the weight I’m at.

In an effort to make 2010 the best year ever I knew it was time to get transparent about my weight. Not just an open book about it but transparent. I thought I would just share pictures every week as a way to ‘journal’ my weight loss journey. But then I decided no because pictures are…well boring.

So I’m doing videos!

Yeah talk about stepping out of my comfort zone and laying it all out there on the line! And let me just say the first two videos are horrible! Not just because I’m totally embarrassed by my weight but because I didn’t do my hair or make-up! I have to figure out a way to video tape them myself because I had my kiddo record them for me and…well he just moves around a lot & video that is ‘jumpy’ like that kind of stinks to watch!

I couldn’t decide if I wanted to share my journey here or start another blog (yeah another one! lol) devoted strictly to weight loss, my weekly weigh in’s, etc. I decided to go for a new one! It’s been up for a little while I just wasn’t sure that I was going to share the link…but I’m being real and transparent and that means not hiding the weight thing anymore.

And I honestly believe with my whole heart that none of you will JUDGE me because of my weight but instead only offer encouragement, support and love.

Whew…now it’s just a matter of giving you the link! lol

http://www.NoMorePlusSize.com

My kiddo woke up at 4am this morning sick. He hasn’t thrown up since late this morning and his fever has held right around 99.1 all day until just recently. It’s now up to 100.5 and I certainly pray it doesn’t get any worse.

He literally camped out in the bathroom for a good portion of the day! I couldn’t get him to come out. He just wanted to lay on the floor by the toilet. A couple different times he was up on his hands & knees, head down on the floor rocking back & forth crying “help me mom.” It was the saddest thing ever and I felt so bad for him. It really stinks when your kid is sick and there’s nothing you can do for them.

Once I finally got him out of the bathroom he took up camp on the couch and pretty much hasn’t moved from that spot. He did fall asleep finally around 4pm and slept for about an hour. I was hoping he’d get more sleep than that.

He’s worried that he won’t be able to go to school tomorrow because he has a basketball game tomorrow night. I told him he can’t help it if he’s sick and there’s always the next basketball game next week that he can play in. He didn’t like that answer lol.

I wish I could record my pastors messages. There are times, like today’s message, that I want to devour the words he said during his message over and over but I can’t because his message isn’t available on audio or anything.

I can’t even form a post that will make any sense of what I want to say because I can’t remember how my pastor worded things, etc. But the jist of it all was that the number 10 represents completion and we are in 2010.

Even before 2010 got here I started feeling that this was going to be a GREAT year. It wasn’t the normal ‘hype’ feeling I get towards the end of a year because a new year, a new beginning is approaching like I usually get around that time. It was a deep down in the soul, deep in my heart, deep in my spirit feeling that 2010 was going to be a year of great things. A year of things coming to fruition in my life – basically meaning things coming to completion!

And today’s message was confirmation that God is going to be doing some awesome things in my life this year – bringing some things to completion. What those things are I have no idea but I know and believe that He is already working on my behalf putting into motion things that need to be taken care of to bring other things to completion…I honestly can’t explain it. It’s just one of those things that I feel and know. Sometimes God just gives me a peace about things that I can’t attempt to explain and this is one of those things.

This was recently sent to me in an email and I thought I’d share it. Some of you may have already seen it floating around out there, some of you may have not. So here it is.

As we start the NEW YEAR… here are 21 things to remember…

(I bolded the ones that are my favorite!)

1. No one can ruin your day without YOUR permission.
2. Most people will be about as happy as they decide to be.
3. Others can stop you temporarily, but only you can do it permanently.
4. Whatever you are willing to put up with is exactly what you will have.
5. Success stops when you do.
6. When your ship comes in…. make sure you are willing to unload it.
7. You will never “have it all together.”
8. Life is a journey…not a destination. Enjoy the trip!
9. The biggest lie on the planet: “When I get what I want, I will be happy.”
10. The best way to escape your problem is to solve it.
11. I’ve learned that ultimately, ‘takers’ lose and ‘givers’ win.
12. Life’s precious moments don’t have value, unless they are shared.
13. If you don’t start, it’s certain you won’t arrive.
14. We often fear the thing we want the most.
15. He or she who laughs… lasts.
16. Yesterday was the deadline for all complaints. (hehehe I love this one!)
17. Look for opportunities… not guarantees.
18. Life is what’s coming… not what was. (this one really hits home because one of the things I’ve been working on is letting go of the past!)
19. Success is getting up one more time.
20. Now is the most interesting time of all.
21. When things go wrong… don’t go with them.

Here’s to an AWESOME year!

I can’t believe I’m actually posting a pic of my foot…well part of my foot (just my hurt toe!)…because, well I just have this thing about feet. They gross me out! It was actually my kiddo’s idea that I take a picture and post it (he’s such a boy!). He couldn’t believe how big it was. He told me “holy crap mom that’s the size of my thumb.”

I’m a little disappointed that this happened because yesterday I was going to start doing my Fat Loss Quickie exercises again and one of my workout tapes and using my rebounder but with my toe like this I can’t do much of anything – it hurts to put any pressure on it let alone put shoes or socks on it.

I have no clue if it’s broken. The only thing I know is it hurts like heck and it won’t stop throbbing!

So what do you think – does it look broken?