I think I’ve made mention three times now about my friend D. The first mention was how we were hanging out and he was going to be my date for my mom & step dad’s wedding vow renewal shindig back in December. Then there was the mention of him and how he kind of just fell off the face of the earth! And then there was the mention of how the mystery of him falling off the face of the earth was solved.

I didn’t want to believe that he wouldn’t pick up the phone and call or text because that wasn’t like him. At least not from what I knew of him. But that’s what happened. And it hurt and ticked me off. But after a couple weeks I got over it. I missed talking and texting and hanging out with him but I was ok. I had things to say to him but figured I’d never get the chance so I had to just let it go. Then suddenly just as mysteriously as he disappeared he reappeared.

Part of me was happy part of me was pi**ed. I couldn’t decide if I wanted to forgive him and give him a second chance or just keep him and his friendship out of my life. But there was that part of me that knew that something had to of happened to make him do what he did because I knew he wasn’t like that. After he explained what happened it made sense but it still didn’t make me stop being mad at him for not taking 2 seconds to call or text.

The point of all this rambling?

I’ve accepted his apology and forgiven him. We’ve been talking and texting quite a bit and last night we had a couple hours worth of conversation. He opened up to me about a lot last night and things made more sense after all that. I’m still not excusing him for his lack of respect to let me know what was going on and disappearing for a month…but I’m glad that I decided to be able to forgive and give him a second chance. I missed having him around, more than I thought. And he is a good guy with a great head on his shoulders and good intentions. We all make mistakes – believe me I’m Queen of them so it almost seemed unfair to even let the thought of not forgiving him cross my mind. He has a lot on his plate right now as I do so we’re just going to start hanging out again once in awhile and see what happens. Relationships should be built on friendship anyways!

I also have to remember that I am working through a lot of things right now (and I was upfront and honest with him about everything that is going on), as he is and that I can’t get sidetracked from the things I’m working on. I know the things I need to focus on – myself, Caleb and my business and I can’t let a man get in the way of that because ultimately if I don’t continue to focus on myself and my problems and get better the relationship wouldn’t work out anyways.