Ok so I don’t have a guitar (although Caleb does…lol) for teardrops to fall on but I certainly had lots of teardrops yesterday. Guess a better title would of been teardrops on my cheeks.

I had ‘one of those’ days yesterday. One of those days meaning I was emotional. And when I say emotional, I mean the tears came for no apparent reason and I couldn’t stop the faucet…they just kept coming and coming and coming. And then it leaves you feeling exhausted and you have a nice big headache. Yeah it was ‘one of those’ days.

I actually considered skipping softball practice because I was having one of those days. But I figured it would do me good to get out of this place, enjoy the warm weather, be social and get exercise while I was at it. And I’m glad I didn’t skip practice because I had a blast. The only thing that bothered me was all the couples that I play with…it just reminds me how much I miss Seth (don’t ask me to try to explain how it’s possible to miss someone that you haven’t actually met because I can’t explain it, I just know that’s what I feel…I miss him) and am looking forward to the day that I get to reach out and touch him, actually hold him in my arms. It was hard to see one couple in the dug out sitting all cuddly and lovey but I survived.

On the way home every song I heard (I should know better than to listen to country music when I’m having an emotional day) seemed to make me cry and Caleb was like mom what’s wrong with you? At first he thought I was crying because he told me his dad was laughing at me about playing softball. I was like no I don’t care that your dad thinks it’s funny. I tried telling him I was just in a crying mood and he informed me that people don’t cry for no apparent reason. He’s too smart for his britches.

I can’t pinpoint exactly why I was having one of those days. Sometimes I just have a day like that where I’m emotional for no real reason and just need to have myself a good cry. I was feeling a bit sappy that next Sunday is Mother’s Day and although I don’t care about getting a card or flowers or a ‘gift’ in general it would be nice to get something even just hearing Caleb say Happy Mother’s Day would be nice but obviously a 9 year old doesn’t think of that.

Anyways…today I feel great. I’m back to my bubbly, giggly, smiley self