I’m a pretty open book – always have been.

Well I suppose sometimes I’m not so open & do hold things back. But for the most part, probably like 90% of the time in fact, I am an open book.

But how real is to real?

Is there even such a thing as being to real? Someone recently made a comment to me about how open and ‘real’ I am on my blog and they couldn’t understand why I would want to be so ‘real’ and open about so many things.

Well because this is my blog. This is my personal blog. I blog about everything that pertains to me and my life – and that means the good, the bad, the funny, the sad and even the ugly.

And anyone that knows me knows that even if I wasn’t an open book and being ‘real’ I can’t hide my emotions. Listen to Mom’s Morning Show and you know when I’m happy, tired, sad, excited, etc. It’s all in my voice! I do try to hold my emotion in when Kelly and I are on the air (like this past Tuesday for example when I was sharing about the financial situation that was going on) but sometimes the harder I try to hold emotion in the more it comes out. That’s always been a downfall or at least I used to look at it as a downfall.

Like the time at my old church someone told me “all you do is cry”. I took that to heart, it hurt, and from then on I tried holding the tears back but it only made me cry even harder in the end.

And you know what? I’m me. I’m wonderfully and beautifully made exactly how God wanted me made – tears and all. Realness and all.

And suddenly I’m not sorry for the crying anymore, I’m not sorry for the things I share about my life, I’m not sorry that I’m me anymore

Being real and allowing people that ‘glimpse’ into my every day life has created some great bonds. People have been able to reach out to me & share their stories with me and it’s always nice knowing someone knows what I’m going through and truly understands.

No more allowing people to make me feel like I have to apologize for who I am. I’m learning to love who I am and what all that means. And if someone doesn’t like how ‘real’ I am – then that’s their problem not mine

Have a great weekend!