It’s 4:15am as I’m sitting and writing this. Most normal people would be sleeping right about now. Well I’m definitely not normal but that doesn’t have anything to do with my sleeping issues.

Tomorrow….errr I mean today, I’m making an appointment with my Doctor. I need some sleeping pills. I can’t go on like this anymore. I need to meet with my regular doctor anyways about the prescription medication that my counselor has recommended for the panic/anxiety attacks anyways.

I’ve tried over the counter things like Tylenol PM and most recently Sleep MD (that gave me the totally bizarre off the wall dream about super glue) which haven’t helped. Well Tylenol PM works for a few days but then it’s like my body gets immune to it or something. And it worked a little too well when I took 3 of them (I definitely don’t recommend that! When they say take 2 they mean 2 for a reason) which knocked me out for the night and well into the following day. The Sleep MD pill made me even more anxious/panicky than I was w/out it. Oh and I’ve tried Melatonin, something natural but that worked for a few days and that was it.

So it’s obviously time to try some prescription ones. I’ve been so dead set against them because of how addicting they can be but that’s the least of my concerns at the moment. Lack of sleep is a serious issue at the moment and it’s affecting me in lots of different ways. From Friday night until now I’ve had maybe 7 hours of sleep…not good. And even when I do sleep it’s never uninterrupted sleep. I toss and turn all night. I fall asleep only to wake up ten gazillion times. But my favorite is when I go to bed because I can barely keep my eyes open but as soon as my head hits that pillow I’m wide awake and I lay there hour after hour still not falling asleep.

Tish