I visited a different church today.  I was invited to go to my friend’s baby dedication at the church her & her husband attend and now I’m in a bit of a bind.  I enjoy my church, my church has done a lot for me and I have some wonderful friends but (that word always makes me laugh because you know something is coming when you see but) for quite awhile I’ve felt that something has been missing.  It has felt like I just wasn’t ‘getting’ it anymore, there hasn’t been a stirring in my spirit in a long time…….until this morning!  I can’t even begin to explain what I was feeling this morning.  It was the most amazing thing ever.  I felt spiritually alive for the first time in a gazillion years!  I hung on every word the pastor said, I felt like I fit in (for the first time I didn’t feel like I was being judged for the way I was dressed or how I looked, etc).  It was just weird how much more ‘at home’ I felt in this church when I’ve been in my church since 2001! 

I had a long conversation with my grandma today (she is one of the reasons I’m a Christian today – she spent 26 years praying for me to receive salvation!  26 years!  That’s a long time & she never gave up on me or praying for me!) and she suggested that I visit the church a few more times to see if I like it.  And she even told me that she remembers way back several months ago when I talked to her about not feeling like my church was where I was meant to be anymore.

I shared with my grandma that part of me would feel guilty for leaving the church I’ve known since 2001 but my grandma explained that people change churches all the time now-a-days and as long as I don’t make a hasty decision and pray about things that this could be what God has had in store for me (a new place of worship) because I’ve felt so spiritually dry for awhile. 

I definitely don’t want to make a hasty decision.  I don’t want to make a decision based on my feelings from today.  I want to visit it (the church) a few more times, pray and seek Godly counsel before making a decision!