One of my goals for 2007 was to start talking to my friends about things that were bothering me instead of holding them into until I couldn’t hold it in any longer and I would then handle the situation at the wrong time and wrong place and not be very nice about it.  So instead another one of my friends, a very wise woman (Kelly you rock!), suggested that I just tell them when something was wrong.  

So I decided ok it’s time for me to grow up and be a big girl and talk things through.  I mean I have been able to talk things throuh in a relationship with the opposite sex so why wouldn’t I be able to talk things through with my girlfriends?  It’s proving to be harder than I expected (sigh). 

Last night I had the chance to share my feelings with one of my close friends about something going on in her life that affects our friendship.  My first instict was to just let it go (what can I say it’s hard to break old habits) but instead I stood up and let my feelings flow.  I was very proud of myself for the way I handled the situation.  I wasn’t snotty about things (like I can be if I let them go to long) but calm.  It felt really good to share my concerns/thoughts but by the tone of her voice I could tell she was irritated with me (sigh).

So after we got done talking I ended up feeling guilty and told myself I should of just kept my mouth shut like in the past.  Then Dr. Phil’s voice popped into my head and I very specifically heard, “so how’s that working for you”? like Dr. Phil always says. And in that moment I realized I had nothing to feel guilty about. 

Why can’t relationships (whether with the opposite sex or the same sex) be easy?  Cause that would be too easy and then I wouldn’t have the chance to ‘grow’ through trials.