I remember thinking (when I was younger) that when I got older I wasn’t going to make the same mistakes again because the older ya get the wiser ya get right?  At least that’s what my mentality of thinking was!

Not so!  It seems I continue to make the same mistakes over and over – no matter what area of my life – and quite frankly I’m fed up with it.  A friend once told me to stop complaining and do something.  She said nothing will change until you choose to change something.

Well I’m about to change EVERYTHING!  Tomorrow is my first day at Curves for Women so I’m going to be working on changing my health (and along with that comes a physical change – hip hip hooray, I’m tired of being FAT).  I’m working on changing my work schedule (I mean hello I own my own business so why am I up at 3 or 4am working???? Not gonna happen anymore!).  I’m working on my emotional well being also.  I have such a low self-esteem and image of myself it isn’t funny. 

I’m 31, this is supposed to be the best years of my life (although I have to disagree with any person that thinks getting older is better…LOL), but I feel like I’m so much older.  I’m about to embark on a journey that I can’t wait to see where it leads me – I’m embarking on a self-discovery ride.  Which also scares the heck out of me! 

You would think that after 31 years of being….well me that I would know who I am.  But I came to the realization that I don’t.  I’ve always been the ‘me’ that everyone else has always wanted me to be – always doing what others wanted, always having to be the people pleaser, always worrying about what others thought of me.  Now it’s time for me to find the true me and emerge from my shell. 

It’s also a time of letting go of some relationships as hard as that is.  Noone ever wants to let go of relationships but sometimes it’s just what has to happen – it’ll be better in the long run.